As a parent, you never stop worrying about your children. No matter how old they are. It's something my Mother always told me, but I never understood it until I became a parent myself. I just dropped off my BIG girl this morning at 6:30 to catch a charter bus for her Senior Class trip to Magic Mountain.
I'm a worry wort. I admit it, but I probably wouldn't worry as much, but I do for good reason. Some of my close friends know that Jenna is Type 1 Diabetic. I hate that word actually. Whenever I say it, the first syllable sticks in my mind. I just try to remember what her doctor told us the first day we were at Children's Hospital. She was 8 years old and he told us, "Jenna can live a long normal life as long as she has good control and takes care of herself." She's dealt with this for 10 years now, and it's been a long 10 years. It's all she knows actually. For the first 8 years, she gave her own injections and she pricked her finger 5-6 times a day. A real trooper. Never complaining except for the first couple of months. She now wears an insulin pump which delivers a constant drip of insulin, much like a normal healthy pancreas does. It makes living with it much easier, but having something attached to her body under her clothing is a constant reminder of what she has. Anyone out there dealing with it knows, it's always a struggle. Like this morning. I hand her a juice box, a few packaged cracker snacks for her to take, and she rolls her eyes. She needs to have these with her at all times. If she has a low blood sugar, she has to act FAST. She can't afford to have to wait in a line to get something. I understand she wants to fit in and just be a normal teen, but it's extremely difficult at times. She never wants to wear her medical alert necklace or bracelet, but last night, she came to me and asked me if I would like her to wear it on the trip. A sign of maturity I suppose, and I was very relieved that I didn't have to ask her to please wear it. Whenever I start feeling down about all of this, I take a look around. I see so many others dealing with so much more than this. You have to stay positive and just do the best you can with the cards you've been dealt.
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